#176 -

I am blogging I am blogging!

Suddenly got the blogging momentum coming, this is good! :D

Haha! This entry will be filled with words and photos, be it miscellaneous or what. :)

17Dec2009 was spent well, I had BBQ at aunt's house! (woot) Sadly, I didn't take any photos! :(

The CP brand honey chicky wings (the exact same one used for 09S22's BBQ) were super mega yummy! I had many of those! Not forgetting satays and prawns... (mmm)

Then the next day, I had Taekwondo in the morning! Received gifts from KwaiGa and Johnathan! Thanks a lot, really didn't expect them! :)

Then meeting with The (Doh) Bitches, with me wearing PE since I had Taekwondo in the morning, Lynette going casual, and Raine as usual, in her 'casual' wear. (See pictures later if you want to know what I mean)

Sakae Buffet with them was love! Raine never fail to crack the both of us up with her 'Doh'-ness. Seriously manz, so long never meet each other, she is still the same! HAHA!

What I ate! So little right! *throw face*

Haha but I ate other stuff like chawanmushi, temaki rolls, soba and miso soup. Plus some of the plates of sushi is like got 2 person's share since we ordered together, so I ate a lot in conclusion! :D

What we all ate after being combined together. *so lousy*

Eat eat eat. This time we ate so little! Bo hua leh! :(

And that poor gyoza there, left by Raine. :(

And of course, there was gift exchanges all these. :D

Both of them snapping photos of me! I am a star! :D:D

Thanks Raine for the colourful carebear! Now I can add it to my carebear collection! :)
Thanks Lynette for the Sakae Sushi treat! :)

Then, Lynette and I started fooling around with the fans Raine got for us from Malaysia!

And I thought of how the Chinese dancers always pose with fans!

 *plays CNY's song*

Oh by the way it's amazing that Raine ate only 2 and a half bowls of Soba! But she still won her self-proclaimed Soba competition since I had 2 bowls and Lynette had only 1 (?).

Raine started playing with her phone effects and I 'joined in' the fun and took that beary photo of Lynette and her! HAHA.

Left Sakae Sushi later and then camwhore a little on the way out plus in the toilet.

This is Raine's definition of casual ie. Sundress and high heels. WOW. O.O

And she isn't considerate enough to not capture the fact that I am actually tiptoeing in the photos. *hurtz*

This time I took charge and captured probably the nicest photo of reflection on Earth. Haha IS the date at the side that is.

 A series of camwhoring in the toilet for girls is a must have! :D

Went out later and Raine saw this Christmas tree and wanted to take a photo of it.

So I posed for her willingly since I was near the Christmas tree then.

HAHA! :D

And then went to JP to walk walk cause Lynette wanted to get some shoes. In the end she didn't buy. Then went to those blingz shop since Lynette and Raine wanna look for stuff to zhng phone. In the end, Lynette got herself some ribbons to zhng her phone whereas Raine got this nail chop like print thing which I 'recommended' to her.

Went to TheFaceShop later. Took our own sweet time looking at the nail polishes and testing them out. :D
I think the shopkeeper a bit buaysong? Haha but we don't care since we bought a lot ok! Like I got 5 bottles of nail polishes, Raine 3, and Lynette 2. And Raine got the French Manicure tips and Nail Polish Remover too!

So they got nothing to say! :D

After that we walk walk a little, accompanied Lynette to get honey aloe vera for her bf and then home sweet home! :)

Some kind lady took this for us! :)

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More to come so watch this space soon!

Post birthday celebration on Monday! YAY! :D

Goodbye, I am a happy and contented girl now! :) :D :) :D

#175 -

I am a happy girl!

Shall update interesting stuff soon, once I received photos etc that is! :)

#174 -

Woke up to a bad dream last night.

Got my face filled with tears and my pillow wet because of it. Woke up startled because I cried till I can't breathe. Like wtf right. ZZZ.

It's not regarding what I blogged about yesterday though. It's something regarding Taekwondo. LOL. -.-

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Happy birthday to Asaph, JeanLe, YuXuan and Zenden, and ME! :D

First person to wish me a Happy Birthday is none other than LynetteLove!

Thanks my dear dear dear friend!

I love you! (cozy)

Don't worry Babi!

I love you too! :D

I know you're overseas and got your reasons for not being able to sms you.

You told me before and I understand!

11 years plus of friendship is super long and nothing is ever going to change the fact! (cozy)

Received messages/calls/wallposts/tags from people I didn't expect.

Thanks for your care and concerns.

I learnt something yesterday.

How expectations can be deadly.

And also to APPRECIATE those who really care and heck all those who don't. :)

To those who care, I thank you for your care and am really touched by what you all have done.

Sakae Sushi Buffet with The (Doh) Bitches tmrw, it would certainly be love.♥ ♥

I miss them so much! :D

Knowing that he will be coming back tonight and the stuff he left in the locker are the only things that distract me from being sad.

Receiving his sms is a reassurance that no matter what happens, everything WILL be alright in the end. :)

#173 -

Sometimes I wish I can just disappear.

Warning: Emo-ranting-wordy-ateenyweenybitofPROFANITY-entry ahead. Please do not read if you're not feeling bitchy like I do now.

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When I was young, Birthdays were considered special occasions to me. My memories of spending the day happily are still etched in my mind. Be it family gatherings, outings or holding parties. I used to think how it'd be cool if I could have birthdays everyday.

Then I grow up. I learnt that birthdays only come once a year. And so I really treasure how special a day like this is. Well, maybe some of you may think that chey, birthday only what, also nothing special, it's just like any other day lor.

But I beg to differ. To me, I think celebrating it is like celebrating another year of being on Earth, another year of knowledge, another year of learning about the greatest things and things you'd never know.

It is nice to know that your loved ones actually remember your birthday. Like just remembering it and wishing you a Happy Birthday is enough. I don't need present or gifts. It's the thought that counts.

At a young age, my family celebrated my birthday like it's my day. And this is also the reason why I think that birthdays are pretty meaningful.

But when I grow up, things change.

And there came friends, where they would send you well-wishings, give you presents and make the day even more lovely and special for you.

I always try my best to remember people's birthdays and then get them small gifts or do small actions like texting or calling them to send my well-wishings. I know how it would feel if someone close to you just forget your birthday and then apologise for doing so.

I am not ashamed to admit, but I often admire people who have large groups of friends who always surprise or plan something big for their birthdays. Well, they seem happy to me. Ironic much since I mentioned it's the thought that counts. But I don't want something big actually. I just want people to remember. :(

I mean I do have friends whom I am very closed to, but they're not the type who'd be the ones remembering all these minor stuff. And this made me feel very sad (perhaps because I expect much). But the thing is, some of them don't even remember when your birthday is.

It hurts when such things happened. I once had a friend who texted me on my birthday complaining to me about some shiaty guy when all I expected a just a simple wishing, Happy Birthday.

Is it really that hard to remember a few numbers just to make someone happy? I mean maybe I expected too much by wanting them to surprise me and all these, but the thought of having to celebrate your birthday alone is super mega ouchie. :(

Furthermore, the worst thing is the person forgot your birthday and ONLY wishes you a Happy Birthday because Facebook 'told' him/her it's their friend's birthday today.

Don't they feel guilty when they actually forgot it's their best friend/good friend birthday that day and yet they even have to DEPEND on a social networking site to remind them?

What type of friend is he/she then?

I am sorry if you feel offended and is one of those Facebook people who ONLY wishes a person Happy Birthday because Facebook 'reminded' you about it but like I mentioned previously, birthdays mean a lot to me and can't I be 'jealous' of people having friends celebrating for them on their birthdays?

I am actually thankful for having cousins who really make me feel special on my birthday.

Last year, they actually planned a surprise for me and met up earlier just to get everything done. When I reached there, they got the cake the present and oh, the heartwarming notes. They bought a 92 paged (Yes I counted) notebook and wrote different short messages in them. I was super shocked and of course touched because one thing is, I thought they wouldn't care and the next thing is (I've never said this before), they are not really my blood cousins.

Stupid thoughts I'd know but I've been keeping these in my heart for very long already. Been wanting to rant them all out but didn't have the time and it's hard to try and get all these words out of my mind. I can't believe I even cried when thinking about all these at night.

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Next thing up.

I never know I'd blogged about this, I guess many people already blog things similar to this but still I'm gonna blog about it.

Today I saw Syahirah in school and then we started talking.

Talked about how people change. (Yes I've been wanting to say this for a very long time)

How stupidly we believe that people said that secondary school friends will be the ones whose friendship will last. What (sorry for the sudden profanity) FUCKING BULLSHIT.

I am closer with my Primary School Clique like wtf.

I see people in my secondary school change, how they become less easier to approach, how when we meet up, we only said hi and nothing else, how we used to become good friends, but now we're just like acquaintances.

It's quite sad to see things like these happening actually. I thought what people said was true. I thought secondary school friendship will last. I can say I am closer with my JC people then secondary school clique please.

Yes it may be true for the first few months when one enters JC/Poly, how they couldn't get use to their new environments, new classmates. And then we would meet up to complain about how we never treasure the times we had together in secondary school, how we miss gossiping, how we miss the teachers, how we miss life in secondary school. Regret here and there.

Then time passed. Given a few months, things changed. People change. They slowly adapted to their new environment and got closer to their JC friends. They sort of forgot their friendship with the secondary school people and yet the thing is no one is doing anything about it.

People are thinking, if he/she wants to meet up and talk, he/she will initiate it. I will wait for that to happen. Then slowly, from good friends, people become friends. From friends, they become acquaintances. From acquaintances, they become strangers.

I admit people can't help but change. Some for the better (good for them), some... Don't want to talk about it. I've changed too. People who know me well should know. But it depends on which point of view you see it from.

Somehow I think most of my close friends, my clique, they all changed. I am so sad to say not many change for the better. Perhaps I see them from a more negative point of view and I tried to be fair and see it more fairly, but then, to me it's like no difference?

They don't even bother to say hello. When you try very hard to fix a date just so you can hang out and meet up with them, they tell you, 'Oh sorry, I'm not free. I am going out with XXX.' It hurts. I know some of them already got dates with another people, but I feel they are just not 'trying hard enough'.

It's like to them, another meet up, another session of going out. But to me, I see it as a chance, the only chance to keep in touch with the rest so that these friendships will never end/break.

Yet they (the friendships) are like hanging on a thread now, and no one is making an attempt to fix it. They are all too bothered with their current lives and their new found friends to even care a shit about you.

Syahirah told me something I thought was super sad. How people in JJC (from my secondary school) have changed and she said 'One day next year, we might not even sit with each other in the morning before morning assembly anymore.'

We (The Kranji 4C'08 people) always 'meet up' and sit together to talk at the very same spot every morning before morning assembly. The thought of the thing she said that might happen is very horrible. I shudder to even think about it.

When I ended the conversation with Syahirah, I feel very sad. Like I wanna cry and just screw everything. Why do things always turn out shiatty? :(

Tomorrow's my birthday and I feel nothing at all. It'd be just like any other day I suppose. Can't wait for it to be OVER.

Fuck everything.

#172 - Update

Hello all. :)

I am updating because Nuffnang is not giving me any advertisements for people to click anymore.
Me wants moolah okay! :D:D

So far, my life has been good. With the exception that school's reopening in 1 month's time and I haven't really been mugging hard. :(

Anyway, I shall not talk much. Let's just let the pictures do the talking. :) *Do note that my photos are in random order*

Okay this picture is super long ago one manzxzx.

I got the Patrick card because my brother went to buy Nestle Honeystars again! He chose the Patrick card because I love Patrick! Yay, much loves! :D

Can change image one. :D:D



I am easily contented man. Right now it's hanging on my pencilcase. I used the 'hooks' which I have left from the cuecards for OP.

Anyway, a few days ago, I went to get new markers to add on to my collection. Hell excited whenever I get myself new markers. Idk why though, crazy much.

7 more markers to add on to my colourful collection!



Next up, nails! :)


Orange nails then! Mad love!


Baby Shimmer Pink nails currently, went to have the manicure at JP. *Can't capture the colour though*

Speaking of nails, I recently got myself two new nail polish colours, Chili Red and Metallic Red.


Metallic red for toe nails! :D

And as you know, I have a fetish for orange stuff and therefore I got stuff that I've no need for that are in orange again!

This M&M chocolate container is one of the orange thing I got!


*extra orange nail*


$3.95 for such a small packet of M&Ms which I still have it in the fridge. But worth it since it's orange in colour! :D


Orange stuff I got on the same day itself. *thumb not included, haha*


Now I've got 2 orange pens! :D


Messy table with Physics notes done when I was SIAO ON about it a few days ago.
*look at the bottom right corner, I drew an apple tree with Isaac Newton's stickman to help remind me it's about Newton's Laws.*

Okay now to random stuffzxzx.

A few days ago, my brother and I went to Hong Kong Xin Wang Cafe to have dinner.


He had Sweet and Sour Chicken Spaghetti.



I had my usual Spicy Pork Ramen recommended by Raine.

Yummy! :D


Sushi for dinner that other night! Now I miss the taste of Soba! :(

Speaking of Soba, The (Doh) Bitches are going to have an Soba-eating competition next Friday at Sakae Sushi according to Raine. (unsure)



Went to Science Centre last Wednesday and got this entrance chop chopped onto my arm!

It's been a long time since I went there, I feel like some kid again! HAHA.

All those Sciency stuff over there, things like F= ma and Centripetal Force. *thinks of Mr Sin*

I bought the kid ticket by the way, since people aged 16 and below are considered kids. :D
FYI: Adult's admission ticket costs $6 whereas the kid one cost only $3. HAHA.

Lastly, The (Doh) Bitches' presents.
*coughs* Spent so *coughs* much time *coughs* and effort *coughs* to look *coughs* for their stuff.
They'd better be touched and love me manzxzx.
I pokkai le. *thinks of Babi's present* T.T

Still got christmas exchange! :(

Anyway, here are the presents! :D


Okay, their birthday 'notes' first. :)


Raine's present.


Lynette's present. :D

Anyway I saw nice fluffy clouds in the sky today.
Made me miss eating cotton candy so much, LOL.
I feel like just plucking them from the sky and chew them. :)



Ending off with a pictures of softtoys on my bed, which is so very little. T.T
Me wants more Patrick and Carebears stuff. *hint hint*



6 more days to 17!

Yay, byebye. :)