solitous diaspora

i feel that i just have to post again. for the sake of posting.
i just want to get everything off my chest. i am very very disappointed already.
i got nothing much to say already, it's of no use.
2a is already gone and will never come back already.
everyone is adapting to their new life and leaving one another already.
the class of 39 is forgotten, even though most of us tried maintaining as one.
many people changed, and the change was so tremendously, that me, myself, couldnt believe it.
until i saw it with my eyes. i really cant believe this whole thing is happening.
what happen to the once united class? where is 2a? i know i shouldnt be asking all this now.
however, as i looked through the yearbook, i realised that 2a is always remembered by me, they are my life.
yet, the change in everyone was too much for me. some changed for the better, whereas some, vice versa.
really really disappointed. i dont know why must this happen.
it's no use wanting the old 2a back. everthing is gone and will never come back to us anymore.
what's the point of holding a gathering when most of us are not who we are last time already?
what's the point of working so hard for a championship title and yet in the end, it was forgotten by people?
what's the point of taking so many photos and not learning how to treasure the 2a buddies well?
what's the point of doing the class videos when many had already changed?
there's no more meaning in those videos already.
i know that, as time passed, many will start to forget about their class in 2006, the class which was once united, which was once strangers, and then cant bear to leave one another.
one by one, they will leave, and as the years passed, all of us will be separated even further.
we might even by-passed one another without knowing each other someday, as though we were strangers once again. 2a is gone, never coming back.
goodbye, 2a. after all this, i learnt to let go of something. i know i cannot force will. so, i want to say, to all the 2a-ians, if i never talk to anyone of you again in my life, you guys are special to me and you guys have made a difference in my life. i look up to you guys, respect you all, and truly cherish you all. i want to embrace you guys. if someday, you guys feel as though you have no friends at all, at least, read this post again, and take comfort in knowing that there's someone out there who cares about you guys and always will.
ah gong really touched me this afternoon. i was just shouting some crazy stuff and i accidentally blurted the word ah gong, and he responded. at least, he acknowledged me. i was happy till i cried, cause, i knew at least, he had not forgotten me and the way i used to call him. ah ma was different. he changed totally. no use calling him ah ma now, he doesnt even respond at all. his eyes are cold now. i see no lingering feelings and it really pains my heart to see all these things happening. i dont want to continue anymore. i feel so much better now. crying and expressing out all these really help.