solitous diaspora

it's been a long time since i confide to anyone my feelings and everything..
and the pile of things in my heart is getting heavier and heavier each day..
yet i am suffering in silence and i dun want ppl to worry..
maybe i cant find someone to confide to..
i dun wan them to worry for me..
hais..
心中有许多话想对你说, 但是总是没勇气开口告诉你..

i really dun wana die.